This is my apology letter. While I had every intention in the world to release Sacrifice of Mercy on October 15th, it didn’t happen.
It seems I’m cursed. Shortly after I made the release date announcement, road blocks started to surface in my life to cause this cluster F$@%. While I assumed nearly a month was enough time to do my final read through with edits, sadly it wasn’t.
My kids started to get sick, one by one and my husband too. It boiled down to: I have time and they need me (or so they whined they did, lol), so in my head ‘I’ll work on it the next day’. Well, as the virus worked its way through my household as viruses do with young children who won’t keep their hands washed or cough in their elbow unless I’m looking. So eventually, I got sick. And I happened to get it the worst. Three days I did nothing but feel as though I was dying.
After getting a bunch of meds from the doctor, at this point I’m scrambling to finish the edits. I considered accepting all and putting the book out there. But my critique partner suggested that I just share with you all what was going on.
Stubborn as I am, I was determined to finish the edits through hell and high water. In fact, I spent several sleepless ‘unproductive’ nights over the last few days trying to get done. Only the day came for publishing, and I struggled to try to stay awake and not taking meds to so that I could finish (meds made me sleepy). And I crashed, unable to stop myself.
Today, I had a follow up with the doctor. I’m not better. I have a course of meds to take, and doctors worried I’m not taking good care of myself. AND my kids woke up this ‘day off from school’ asking if I planned to take them to the movies and to get their Halloween costumes as promised. (I thought I would be done with the book when I made that promise).
I had to make some tough decisions.
And I decided I needed to come clean. And hope you guys will forgive me. I also decided I can’t keep letting my kids down because in their words, I’m always in front of a computer, and I don’t have time for them. (Guilty). I need to give them some time today.
So I beg that you all will understand I need just a few more days. I promise to put it up after I finish with the last 30 or so percent of edits. I hope it’s worth the wait. And again, I’m sorry.
*hangs head low*
Also, I’m not ignoring your post, comments, PMs, emails. I’ve just been so focused on the book; I haven’t read through them yet. And I’ll admit I didn’t want to feel any guiltier than I do. I will respond to all your messages in the next day once Mercy is live.
Again, I’m sorry…